It’s interesting that I’ve shifted so much recently but that recent growth has made something stand out that hasn’t shifted quite as much as everything else.
That is FULL SELF EXPRESSION.
Now, don’t get me wrong.
I’ve made some MASSIVE shifts in this area, but there is just a little bit of my old stuff holding me back and thought it might be useful to work through it out loud – as I know this will resonate with some of you.
The bit that is left for me is that I hold myself back from fully jumping into my business – even though I see the massive difference it makes to people.
The way it’s showing up is that I don’t fully show up and speak about what I do with enough people so they truly understand how I can assist them.
The reason being….
I still look outside of myself for reassurance AT TIMES.
It’s not that often nowadays, but as I travel and expand into new levels of consciousness, it can feel overwhelming at times, and that is when my old conditioning kicks in.
And my old conditioning used to have me do anything possible to distract myself when I felt any level of overwhelm.
It especially had me reaching outside of myself looking for reassurance.
The thing is – I often didn’t ask the right people and it would have me going against my truth.
I knew what they were telling me was not in alignment with me, but as I didn’t trust myself – I would rather go with what they said, and in the process, make myself wrong.
And when you feel wrong – you tend to shut down and hide – not fully show up as who you really are.
So that was then – what is now?
So the more that I’ve started to look inside and follow my truth, the more I’ve got to trust in my own judgment.
And the more I’ve come to trust myself – the more self expressed I’ve become and this has been in many areas.
– How I look
– How I dress
– How I have my hair
– How I speak in general
– How I show up in the World
So acknowledging all of that is awesome and so is becoming conscious of that whole mechanism that I run.
And how do I make that more conscious?
That – I will share more of over the next coming days and weeks.
As now I am conscious of it – I get to be aware of when I’m running it – and now I get to make new choices and take new actions.
And by taking new actions I get to give myself new evidence to back up my new belief that I AM self assured.
Time to choose into more of that (light bulb moment)
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