So as you may or may not know, I started a new routine in the new year.
I made some new commitments that were aimed at creating new, empowering habits in my life.
Well – one of the new habits that I chose to install was meditation.
This is something I’ve had a love hate relationship with for many years and done on and off – more off to be honest.
Then since my ayahuasca experience in Columbia, the relationship I have with myself is so much different and I actually enjoy going inside to explore.
Along with that – a few awesome peeps in my life who’s opinions I value highly have reported amazing things from meditating – so I decided to just have faith and give it a go – thank you Chrissie, Rosario, Emma and Junior.
So on New Years Eve, just after I had my amazing experience and awareness of my relationship with anger, shortly after losing my phone. I decided to treat myself to a years subscription to headspace – the meditation app.
Junior had told me what an amazing motivation and journey it had been using the app so I thought I’d give it a go.
At first it was new and exciting – so even though my mind wandered a bit, it was something new so I did it with no resistance.
Then after a coupe of week I started to become really aware of something.
My squirrel mind – LOL.
I found it sooooo hard to stay focussed on just one thing – my mind was all over the place.
The thing is, it’s not that it’s particularly noisy, it’s just that I find it difficult to focus on some things.
If I’m working with someone in a session then I’m laser focused. Also if I’m immersed in a deep technical subject – I’m focussed there too.
But if it’s just my day to day stuff – my focus gets dragged all over the place and thing take me considerably longer to do whatever I’m doing.
This is awesome awareness because I’ve never noticed what was causing my seeming lack of motivation. Awesome to find out that it’s nothing to do with motivation, it’s more to do with focus (or lack of it).
So what difference have I noticed over the last month???
One of the main things is that I’m not finding it much easier to stay focussed on the thing that I’m doing in that moment. In fact I’m m much better at staying in the moment.
I’m finding it much easier to stay conscious to whatever I’m doing also – so things are much quicker.
It’s given me an opportunity to put myself first in my day which is something really powerful that I teach my students. This has massively increased my self esteem over the period.
At the opposite end of the day I am sleeping much deeper and for longer.
I’m becoming more self aware and noticing if my mood changes much quicker and finding myself much more able to do something about it before it’s too late and it runs away with me.
It’s actually the perfect compliment to the coaching system I developed.
I feel much more creative and ideas are flowing through me much more fluidly.
I feel much more connected to myself and have been much more patient and kind to my self.
And all of that for being quiet for 40 mins a day for less than a month.
Not a bad return on my investment.
Do you know the best thing though.
I’m starting to love that little bit of time for me – with me every day ?
If you haven’t tried it – give it a go – headspace is an awesome start if you’ve never done this before.